becauseofeuu.

2006-10-15T23:34:00.000-07:00

you dance to the beat while i die by the minute
lalalalalaa its been a long time since i blog ! haha
stupid keyboard broke down and i had to like use on screen keyboard . how nice huh ? and WE are talking :D jerm and rachel should know who am i talking about luh ! and shopping had been crazy !
shopping craze products :
1.rocking horse necklace
2.superman cap
3. FIVE shirts
4. 1 dorothy perkins bag :D
5. MANY CHARMS

hahah thats about it :)
oh wells , rise and build is coming and i ought to sacrifice on my shopping time and sit down and save money for rise and build .
hwachong concert coming and i am gonna see you . i dont know if i can take it luh ! hurrrrrrrrrrr . but the sunflower will surely reach you :]

its true , i cant let go of you

2006-08-11T08:22:00.000-07:00

E406

What a wonderful cell group it had been,
showered by God 's blessings .
As one , we say .
It may be hard but we all know we can do it .
Tears shed but we are all happy for we had multiply .

Memories we all create ,
will not fade away .
Cause it is embedded in our hearts ,
forever more .

Two weeks ,
the last time we will get together .

I love all of you
and i will miss all of you .

I will always remember E406
and i will still do my songsheets .

Ephesians406

There is one body and one Spirit, just
as you were called in one hope of your
calling;
one Lord, one faith, one baptism;
one God and Father of all, who is above all, through all, and in you all .

I dedicate this psot to all my fellow E406 members cause i want all of you to know that i will remember all of you .

130806

two more weeks ; i will prepare loads of tissue .

2006-08-11T08:19:00.000-07:00

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2006-05-31T05:21:00.002-07:00

went to town with jermaine today . suppose to meet at 1.30 at orchard but in the end i waited for her at ang mo kio until 1.45 ! how nice huh . haha
then we reach orchard at 2 and we went into wisma ! we went into forever 21 and the necklace that i want is gone ! and i only saw it like last week ? hurr then i was damm pissed
haha then next we went nto topshop and something really hilarious happened ! THAT STUPID JERMAINE GO AND PUT A BRACELET ONTO HER HAND AND SLIDE IT ALL THE WAY UP TO HER ARM AND SHE COULD NOT GET IT OUT ! but luckily , she got it out but her elbow turned red ! haha so funny :D
after loitering around wisma , we went to far east and we bought loads of stuff
we both got a black shorts which cost only 14.50 ! then i went to buy a red shirt and it matches very well with the shorts ! haha then i also bought a golden hoop earring and it is freaking cheap too. only 4.90 ! haha then jermaine bought two pairs of earring at 5 and it is very nice too ! haha and we bought loofans from body shop ! haha so funny ! it is actually for face but that stupid jermain want o use it for her skin too ! omg shooping with her was damm fun and our taste click ! i want to go shopping with her again !
anyway i am going to get a bag with jerm for service from hula and co ! and it is 39.90 and i spend like 65 today ?! haha but nevermind it been ages since i went on a shopping spree :D
by the way , i love JERM even though she is abit dumb and slow !

2006-05-31T05:21:00.001-07:00

2006-05-31T05:21:00.000-07:00

2006-05-28T03:37:00.000-07:00

cell group was wonderful
service was fun
BUT the best of all was the cycling trip !
haha the cycling turn out well and only nine people turn up
1. me
2. yiling
3. baoyi
4. adam
5. rhonda
6. wilLARD ( the person who only know how to bully me ! )
7. jianhao
8. wenrui
9 . wayne ( wonderful cell group leader :D )

haha it was damm fun and we cycle from east coast all the way to lau pat sat ! and we cycle until 6am can ? haha i was damm tired but yiling was like shouting : '' ESTHER ! DONT SLEEP ! ''
but that did not really help , i got even more sleepy ! then here comes that stupid willard ! he keep bullying me can ? firstly , he go and open my bag and put his 100 plus inside it . then he know that i am scared of cockroaches and he still go and scare me . and the baoyi also not any better ! but they are still nice la ! at least willard help to carry my bicycle up the stairs ! and baoyi made me jealous by telling me that the aunty gave 5 BIG dumplings and i only got 4 ! but they are still the bestest cell group members ! hahaha
and yiling and elaineand charlyn and xinru and rhonda and willard and baoyi and wayne and robin and adam and the others too !
I LOVE THEM :D

elaine panty : i am damm excited for emergeee ! hahaha i love you :D

2006-05-26T07:20:00.000-07:00

why must you always lie to me ?
does lying really doesnt matter to you ?
why must i be exposed to the truth behind your FKING lie ?
if the truth is not known , we would not be what we are now .
i am sick and tired of being the person who always quarrel with you and reconcile with you

you are an ultimate BITCH
get lost of my life
i love you no more

2006-05-24T04:14:00.000-07:00

anyway height and weight today
HEIGHT :157 cm
WEIGHT : 41.94kg

haha i want to hit 38kg ! must work hard towards that :D before 15 june so i could be on my best for you
nevermind !
that huichun say i look like rabbit when eating the lettuce ! GO DIE LA
and by the way i was trying to act smart while lowering my specs :]

2006-05-24T03:35:00.000-07:00

after school i went to amk library with YANG HUICHUN ! we are supposed to go to national library then that stupid yang huichun say it is abit too far ! WLAO ! and there is nothing in amk library that has wine fermentation can ?! but in the end we went to read picture books at the children counter ! damm funny .
and all because of yang huichun that i had to go and eat this damm disgusting mushroom sandwich because she said that the chocolate truffle is filled with FATS !

but nevermind , we took alot of pictures and it is the first time taking pictures in short hair ! haha posting them now !

2006-05-23T06:29:00.000-07:00

yeah , i am right .
i still cannot let go of you after so long .
it been months and all we are , are just drifting logs going further and further from each other
i dont know why you still hold a place in my heart , perhaphs perhaphs it is just another of my wishful thinking

i want to forget all about you , i want to replace you ! I WANT but who can help me ?

I HATE YOU , HS

2006-05-23T06:20:00.000-07:00

I rise with you in the wake of the morning .
I walk with you in the cool of the night .
And every single day , I will be devoted to your way,
Only yours ... only yours
this is one of my favourite christian songs :D

well . woke up damm early today ! went to have MACS breakfast with mijie :D then recess was wonderful ! pam me and mijie . i hope for more tuesdays . then i send thise lyrics to apm and chords AT FIRST ! then pam go made mije jealous and i had to send it to her RELUCTANTLY ! hahaha joking !

I LOVE MIJIE AND PAM

and tommorrow i going to bring camera to school and take pictures ! haha i think tommorrow will be a great day cause me and YANG HUICHUN are going to national library ! haha and i have been teasing her whether she knows how to go home anot ! hope she does :D
anyway chords , i love you more and more and you are a WONDERFUL FRIEND !

I LOVE CORDELIA HAN XINXUAN :D

2006-05-08T20:11:00.000-07:00

what can i say ? i just love both of them more and more :D

OHHHH PAM ! I LOVE HER <

famous 604 forever :D

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PAM AGAIN ?!

2006-04-22T23:52:00.000-07:00

why are the both of you like that ? you are just trying your best to make me hate both of you ! i am so damm jealous when i see other sections so damm bonded ! why cant ours be like that ? you all only know how to say that i suck up to seniors to get what i have now . but cant you all think ? i count on my own to get what i want till now . i never suck up to anybody so can you all please stop it ? if you both want what i have now you all can straight away tell me and not gossips behind me . i ADMIT i had gossips about you two before but the whole world gossips . so i dont really expect both of you to stop it but can you all just stop being hypocrites ? i know i am contradicting myself . and the reason i dont want to play guzheng is that i suck in it and it is not to prevent you two from sitting in front .
i guess you two know that i am talking about you two . feel free to confront me . and i did not ask tingjun to let me play the solo part so stop asking her whether is it her who let me play or i ask her to let me play . i know why you all want me to play guzheng . and me getting to sit infront is not sucking to huiying . if you two are not really happy in me playing solo or me siiting in front come and find me . stop asking tingjun here and that . no use asking her . if you two are BRAVE enough to ct nice in front of me come and find me . i will clarify everything to both of you . SO PLEASE STOP THE WAY BOTH OF YOU ARE . you two are my good friends and i am not lying .

2006-04-03T20:41:00.000-07:00

i am damm pissed at both of you ! so what i am not the same class as you and you all get to know new friends and go for a BIG RECESS with them ? like leave me alone here huh ? so what if YOU had ask me to go with them ? have you put yourself in my shoes ? HAVE YOU ?
what if one day i suddenly get to know a group of NICE people and i ask you along to come how would you feel ? left out ? if both of you dont treasure this friendship so be it . you may jolly well come to my blog and read this and dont deny the fact that i am angry ! just that i did not tell you over the phone does not mean that i am alright with anything you all do ! so whatever it is GET LOST !

2006-03-28T21:57:00.000-08:00

PE was hilarious today !
w were doing situps when suddenly wanyi turned to tell me that jermaine got big boobs ! haha it was so damm funny la
then miss natasha said that by doing stomach excersise we can have babies easier haha . then me and ben ben were like laughing a hell lot (:
actually me and chan hui yun suppose to go to KAP but we changed our decision due to JERMAINE KOH JIA NA !
we are going mos to celebrate jermaine 's big boobs day ! haha
and i may be treated to an ice milk tea (:
nyeh nyeh
today was a fun fun fun fun day :D
i love my class (:

2006-03-19T06:27:00.000-08:00

i listened to THAT SONG
and tears just rolled down .

big fat meano nice pig : YOU BRIGHTEN UP MY DAY THANKS (:
YOU PREVENTED ME FROM THINKING ALL THOSE STUFF THANKS LOADS
hope that when school reopen we will still be as close

2006-03-18T08:07:00.000-08:00

I LOVE MY BIG FAT MEANO PIG
WE ARE FELLOW POSERS HATERS
WE ARE FELLOW AH BENGS AND AH LIANS HATERS
WE ARE PEOPLE OF HIGH SOCIAL STANDARDS !
correct big fat meano PIG ?
( YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE HUH )
I LOVE YOU (:

2006-03-17T06:18:00.000-08:00

today tuition was damm hilarious !
liyi actually SWALLOWED half of a chewing gum ! haha how stupid can she get ? so from this , i could come to a conclusion that ec people have high IQ but low EQ ! haha
then me and ben ben invented something .
she is ah lian and i am ah hua !
and her boyfriend is ah beng and mine , ah cao ! ( i invented this )
how wheel - bounded can we get ? - oops
today was indeed a fun day !
i look forward to FOOD FROM THE HEART TOMMORROW (:

2006-03-16T06:59:00.000-08:00

IL DIVO
REGRESA A MI
:D

isnt it like damm nice ?

2006-03-16T06:25:00.000-08:00

went to rachel ' s dad office to work early this morning ! she told me that we only had to fold boxes but i heard wrongly that it was shove boxes ! haha so i wore my converse shoes instead of plain slippers .
IT WAS SUPER DUPER TIRING !
but the worst thing is , i cut my finger ! and there is like no plaster ! so i had to use toilet paper to wrap around and use masking tape to secure . may i know who on earth would be as mad as me to think of this ? haha .
after a long day in the office , i went to parkway parade with my mum and ate MOS ! YUMMY YUMMY
it was super delicious and i think i am going to grow fatter and fatter day by day ! oops
then i bought a wallet from dorothy perkins and a nail buffer :D the wallet is green colour and it seems very seducing ! haha
and the nail buffer which is the same as rachels ! and i bought it at one dollar but poor rachel bought it at $2.50 ! poor thing

okay ! go to go and buff my NAILS now !
ta-da

2006-03-14T05:19:00.000-08:00

I stood within my heart searching frantically for an answer . I heard my cries , I heard my pain and I heard the sorrows . I shut ears off , i close my eyes hoping that it was none other than a nightmare . But the truth stabbed me like sharp daggers .The pain was there , it was eternal . It is etched deep within my soul . A pain never to be healed , never to be taken away . I dont want the truth . I want the lies . I want the pain to be taken away , to be healed . I know the lies could do all that ! But my lust for the truth overpowered those beautiful lies . Reality surround me with those haunting words 'FACE IT ! FACE IT ! ' It had wanted me to face it with my fragile soul but i chose to face it hidden behind a mask . A mask never to be seen never to be torn . A mask that is wrapped up with those beautiful lies , a mask which hides a face filled with nothing but the truth .

PS : I wrote all these by myself ! RATE IT !

2006-03-13T05:37:00.000-08:00

i am having high fever now
but i do not dare to sleep because i am alone at home .
will someone accompany me ?
and i have gastrics now !
but too bad i am on a diet so have to bear with it (:

2006-03-12T07:54:00.000-08:00

i was in a real bad mood . byt some people cheered me up !
jonathan : thanks for cheering me up even though you were on the verge of dozing off ! you are so GREAT (:

i am not going for the auditions ! you ass ! you dont deserve my respect !

i feel much better now (:

2006-03-11T06:25:00.000-08:00

FIESTA !
oh my gosh ! it totally rock even though we were EXTREMELY tired ! haha
and i was very shocked when jonathan hand me a melted chocolate ! hahah and he ask me who is esther ! stupid ! and later on he got a fever ! hahah !
jonathan: get well soon and beware of your eyes popping out (:

then after fiesta , jialin , me , rachel and sherwyn went for dinner at mos burger ! then we somewhat had a talk and their words kinda of enlightened me or made me more assure of myself . haha and i was feeling high during the whole day !
feeling high is the way for me to preoccupy of what is ongoing in my mind ! and now i am feeling high again and i dont know why ):

2006-02-21T22:21:00.000-08:00

everybody around me had been discussing about soccer .
hurr. what is so nice about soccer ?
isnt it just over people chasing the ball ? a sickening ball !
hahaha and we had soccer for pe somemore ! just some kicking around for a hour ! like huh ?! waste of time ! seriously ! haha but it was rather hilarious ! i keep kicking jerms ball and cause her to run around ! haha and i was selected for english enrichment thingy by MR GERAINT WONG ! haha only for those who got high B3 1 i am getting egoistic ! abd i just realise that my B3 was actually 69 ! one more mark to A2 HAHAH
I AM SOUNDING AS THOUGH B3 IS SO DAMMMMM GOOD !

hurr . got to go for lunch byebye

2006-02-21T04:18:00.000-08:00

your reply was okay
and your answer made me realise that all that i had done was nothing to you . you do not put it on your mind ! maybe your P***** was more important . i was trying to tell myself that it is not true but your actions proved me wrong

you asked me why but i said nothing and you walked away silently .
i am sorry
i really cannot accept you because somebody else had stolen my heart
SORRY

2006-02-19T06:37:00.000-08:00

you are an ultimate ASSHOLE

get lost will you ?
YOU BIG ASSSHOLE ! :D

i am mad dont bother about me

2006-02-18T09:04:00.000-08:00

hurr . i read 2 person blog and i got quite jealous .
hahaha they are both damm close like the past us
i miss those time but now i look forward to the future !

racchel : please do not think otherwise .
:D

2006-02-18T08:20:00.000-08:00

my finger bled after folding 200 stars for somebody !
that person better go and treasure my present or else i will surely go and kill him / her !
haha i sound so fierce ! anyway i going to give the present tommorrow !
hope the recipient will like it (:

i love you ; yes i do

2006-02-17T01:57:00.000-08:00

should i give you your birthday present ?
or should i just let it go ?
would you mind meeting me to get your present ? would you ?

i am in a great dilemma . what should i do ?
GOD HELP ME .

2006-02-16T23:35:00.000-08:00

A . MATHEMATICS : 22/30
E . LITERATURE: confirm fail !
CHEMISTRY : SAME FATE AS ENGLISH LITERATURE

HURR . I COULD GET 28 FOR MY MATHEMATICS !
i got everything right except for question 4ai and question 5 which i did not manage to do finish ! that resulted in me getting 22/30 ! i want my extra 6 marks !

DO YOU KNOW HOW MUCH YOU MEAN TO ME ?
DO YOU ?

2006-02-16T05:22:00.000-08:00

whenever i think of you , I feel depressed .

have i fallen for you ?

2006-02-15T07:19:00.000-08:00

I WONDER WHAT HAD HAPPEN TO THE COCKROACH !

you are making me pessimistic too ):

2006-02-15T07:08:00.000-08:00

haha somebody is depressed and i tried cheering him up with two simple words , cheer up !
haha be optmistic ! dont always sound so pessimistic ! make you look scary ! even though it may be some personal stuff and we are not that close to let you tell me but hope you will find one confidant to talk to !

remember , if you have nobody to talk to , i will be here for you ! for everybody whom i know too !
find your happiness too because i already found mine ! it is easy to find it ! PRAY TO GOD !
i had learnt to be a more devoted person

I JUST STEPPED ON A COCKROACH ! BARE-FOOTED !

2006-02-14T22:03:00.000-08:00

HERSHEY NUGGETS ARE NICE : D

2006-02-14T20:17:00.000-08:00

I missed two or rather three test today !
1.BIOLOGY
2.SOCIAL STUDIES
3.CHINESE CHENG YU

I study like SugarHoneyIceTea yesterday night for my biology and I got a sudden fever this morning ! wasted all my efforts can ? wth !

YAYY ! later rachel and maybe yingteng will come to my house for studying sessions ! haha ! actually it should be playing sessions because once we get together , the computer is a confirm YES for us ! and there will be more phototaking sessions ! so look out for those pictures ! :D

hurr. i am so pissed with friendster.com !
i cannot upload those pictures that I want to upload !
my file is too big for their pathetic software ! how pathetic can they be ?

I LOVE THE CHINESE ORCHESTRA SONG FEI TIAN ! it is such a nice song !
okay maybe people who are not in chinese orchestra may not be able appreciate it but seriously , it is damm nice ! and hope that SNCO will be able to play it but i doubt so because like conductor LIU will choose other type of songs for next year syf ! hope the song will be nice ! maybe he can choose FENG but I think FEI TIAN is out of his choice cause like so many schools played fei tian for the past syf ! i kinda miss SYF ! the anxiety we had on 22nd of APRIL 2005 ! haha next year shall be the last time i experience this kind of anxiety and excitment in snco ! looking at how fast time flies , I think I was a very naive girl in the past . but now , I am so much matured ! My looks , my character and my way of thinking totally changed ! and i have become a more selfish person (:
MY VIEW TOWARDS BOYS CHANGED FOR THE WORSE !
That was a few of the major changes I experienced in my secondary life ! haha

WELL I REALLY LOOK FORWARD TO NEXT YEAR SYF !
even though we got GOLD for the past year syf , I HOPE SNCO WILL CONTINUE TO WORK HARD AND ACHIEVE ANOTHER GOLD ! OMG , I am talking as though I am a great great senior who is going to leave st . nicks soon ! hahaha
i guess it will be so so hard for us to get a GWH or maybe impossible for us to get it! and Conductor LIU even thought of us being better than nyco . it will be ages before we can even do that ! I am not being pessimistic or what but it will be so so hard ! just compare individually , how many people in snco take private lessons ? 10 out a 100 over people / while nyco is almost everybody in chinese orchestra are taking private lessons and most of them are grade 6 and above ?
I believe in order to be a very good chinese orchestra like dunman , hwa chong and nanyang , we had to strive on our own first isnt it ? but not depend on other to take lessons to pull the standard up ! it is not enough , seriously ! so we had to start now !
BUCK UP SNCO ! WE CAN DO IT (:

GWH is not within our reach !But we will strive to get it in our hands !

PS:
I seriously do not know why I suddenly talk about st . nicks chinese orchestra and syf but it just got into my mind (:

2006-02-14T02:47:00.000-08:00

DEMURE GIRLS :DDD

ACTING CUTE !

WE LOOK NICE IN THS PICTURE !

MY BEAUTIFUL NAME ! :D
IN PINK !

we had fun taking pictures !

I am simply not affected by you ! FINALLY !

2006-02-13T16:43:00.001-08:00

me hamster and ben ben

2006-02-13T16:43:00.000-08:00

me hamster and ben ben !

ughhh ! I AM SO SICK !

2006-02-13T05:41:00.000-08:00

I just learnt a very important lesson .
never to take the intiative to talk unless people talk to you
never be too friendly or caring
never to talk to unsensitive people

you had just taught me how to be a selfish person .
and i thank you for that !

I CANNOT SEE GOD
MY EYES ARE BEING BLINDFOLDED BY THE MAGICAL SCARF
HOPE GOD WILL STILL STAY WITH ME .
HOPE GOD WILL BE MY PILLAR OF SUPPORT
HOPE GOD WILL BE THERE WHEN I CRIED
BLESS THAT I WILL NOT BE CHEATED BY THE SATAN
BLESS THAT I WILL CONTINUE TO BELIEVE IN GOD
BLESS THAT I WILL BE MORE UNDERSTANDING THAT WHEN GOD IS NOT WITH ME , HE MAYBE BUSY SOLVING OTHER PEOPLE PROBLEMS .
TEACH ME TO BE A MORE SELFISH PERSON SO PEOPLE WILL NOT FIND ME IRRITATING OR ANNOYING OR EVEN SCARY
I HOPE THAT I WILL BE A BETTER PERSON AND BE A PERSON WHO WILL NOT BE OVER-FRIENDLY .
GOD . I PLEAD WITH YOU .

2006-02-13T04:45:00.000-08:00

finally thigs are solved and I am not affected by you anymore .
seems like we are no more friends so i am here to wish you good luck in whatever you do !
misunderstanding is not solved but it still stays there !

where did GOD went to ?
I ASKED MYSELF
BUT NO REPLY WAS GIVEN

I dont hate red colour anymore !

2006-02-13T04:14:00.000-08:00

my degree is 39.5 dgree celsius !
hongshen : seriously , i am not talking about you ! dont hu si luan siang !

2006-02-12T23:44:00.000-08:00

friends will never drift apart .

WHAT A JOKE !
do not ever belive in that !
really ! I am a very very good example !

I HATE RED COLOUR !

2006-02-12T20:06:00.000-08:00

I am slacking at the library right now .
haha and I am like listening to fei tian now ? A super super nice song . hope our co can play it which is like almost impossible ? haha cause we are just so lousy !
okay . yesterday was quite a bad day . I kinda bring troubles to myself . TO think I was so nice to want to but you or make you a present . and you were like I got no preferences !
WHAT THE HELL ! I am just so stupid ! To fall for your trap once again ! HURRR . I HATE YOU
hahaha

house meeting later ! OMG so boring !

2006-02-11T21:40:00.000-08:00

ESTHER!

im so sorry for being so mean just now at his house.
you know the stuffs..
erm, get over it.
HE'S NOT WORTH IT OKAY.
just trust in god (:

# rachel

2006-02-11T05:41:00.000-08:00

I guess we are over isnt it ?
Maybe there is nothing I can do to salvage our friendship .
I tried , I really tried so hard to deleted you out of my memory but i cannot .
Just what do you want me to do ? JUMP over the cliff for you to see or what ?

Maybe it is just god ' s will .

2006-02-11T05:16:00.000-08:00

I am losing my balance and may just topple over the cliff anytime . Till then will I be free from all troubles and also YOU !

God , help me . Bring back my confidence and faith to face reality . Dont forsake me . Help me Father .

In great pain ,
ESTHER

2006-02-10T19:25:00.000-08:00

I just realise something , I hate RED COLOUR .
Because it had broken my heart alot of times and I am feeling numb to it once again .

2006-02-10T07:40:00.000-08:00

I had been in alot of thinking nowadays . i just found out that you actually dislike me . i read your blog and did serious thinking about stuff . you may think i am flirting ! i dont know who are you talking about but i just assume that it is me . you changed so much . you may not treat me as a friend and i did not too . i chat with you online is for the sake of my scores . maybe you think why should i take it from you ? but bear in mind that i only know one gz player from a school that play mlh . if you think i am desperate i am not . since you do not care about me why should i ? to think we were so close during 2004 . maybe our circle of friends had broaden and we had neglected each other . i admitted it was my fault to actually give you the idea of breaking up a friendship . your blog disappointed me . really ! to think you wrote that about me . SERIOUSLY , you dont know about me . our friendship broke in 18 january 2006 . i will remember that date forever because that is the day when you became total strangers . we were not as close as we were . we had a good friendship before but now our friendship is being reserved for somebody more important to you . i feel numb to you and everything esle . maybe you can say that i am a coward running away from all this stuff but i cannot face reality . i am afraid i may broke off soon when i am now already torn into pieces . now do i realised that you have never ever cared about me NEVER . i thought you had a very good character but i was wrong totally WRONG . YOU HURT ME SO MUCH AND YET YOU FEEL SO NUMB TO IT . I HATE YOU DEEP FROM MY HEART !

I wish you happiness :D

2006-02-03T20:25:00.000-08:00

ESTHER DEBRA LEONG MAN LING.

not fun. why you change account ?
this was supposed to be a surprise post for your info.
but you spoiled it! haha.
flying notes across the classroom is fun aint it ? :D
heh. lucky mspraba was not around.
anyway, seeya on monday.
dun miss me too muchhhh okay?

jiayou for GEOG test.
&UPDATE LAH for god's sake.

<3456789,
your beloved daughter. :D

MUNCHIES.

> crunch crunch

2006-01-18T07:11:00.000-08:00

18 of january had been a bad day for me! everything came so abruptly that i cannot cope with it. maybe it dosent really matter to you since you dont treasure it! you may think that this are all kiddy play to you but you have unknowingly hur peoples feelings! you don even seem to bother about our friendship like if you want to be friends then be frineds la dont want then nevermind! i was like damm shocked when you said those words. we will never ever be friends again! i may be the stupid one who cares so much about our friendship even to the extent of cying! i will never be a fool like i was before! i loved you as a friend but you treat me like dirt! our friendship is dead!DEAD!

sunday blooms

2006-01-15T06:07:00.000-08:00

today was such a funny day!i went for my baking lesson and finally learnt how to bake a strawberry pie which tasted so nice?and then after my lesson i went to bugis with my mum and my cousins!oh my gosh and you know what?the skirts there are all damm cheap!like 12 dollars per piece and the desigh are all very nice!the boss there was like damm funny!he actually ask me to introduce his shop to my friends and he said the most expensive skirt he have is only 15 dollars and new stock is arriving on the 23rd!do i sound like i am the spokeperson for that shp?okay i really do!but you cannot blame me the skirts are all really very nice!and yayy my cousin is coming to my house tommorrow to help me do pedicure but i am seriously not sure if i can do it!because my broher actually stepped on my nail and broke it!what the hell!and i was like thinking i could make my nails pretty tommorrow!i feel like strangling!and me and chords were supposed to go to national jc tommorrow and mr bugs bunny got sick and chords have to look after him!is like arghhh!but nevermind next week is jungmin birthday and we famous 604 can go to national jc to give her a big big suprise!i bet she will be damm touched until she cry!and i reallymiss her alot!the forever funny girl but too bad she is not with us anymore!CRIES!haha i am such a pessimistic person!

hci interaction

2005-11-27T21:20:00.000-08:00

woke up at 6.50 ytd for the interaction.well quite fun and besides st.nicks ther were a few other schools like hci,nanyang,rivervalley,victoria school and raffles insituition.my group consists of like
-me
-rebecca
-peiqi
-lester
-junyang
-shouhao
-janet
and our leader geri
my group was rather a fun lot except one person.si en and liyi would probably agree with me..
had fun with the wacko and double wacko!pple keep mixing up with me and lester.so ya,everybody were blurred with our names!haha
the games was rather lame compared to last year maf hahs.and last year maf was so much better.then the mass water games rather fun but with very limited water bombs!:/
but it is okay..
went to this particular person guestbk and read it..well i already ask u to tag in my board like super long ago but you did not instead you went to her damm guestbook to tagg and it is like recent one??what the hell!i hate you man!

PUMA bag

2005-10-11T01:27:00.000-07:00

okay.today was i wonderful day i would say.we had a few talks and this priest named simon came to our school.The talk was very inspiring and you know,vry emotional too.i think quite a number of people cried.oh my gosh.i dread for tommorrow.getting back our CHINESE,ENGLISH AND LASTLY HISTORY RESULTS.
i am really scared.but still i look forward to friday and sunday.
Friday programme:going to ice- skating with bee,chords and rachel
sunday:celebrating rachel bdae art escape with mijie,pamela,chords and jingmin well and of course birthday girl rachel lahh!!haha i think i m kinda mad.nevermind.gonna buy the PUMA bag with chords on her birthday.haha.need to save money though my mum can sponsor me abit.haha.anyway chords always dint go for the 6 people gathering.SO IRRITATING YOU KNOW!!!! BY THE WAY,IF SHE DO NOT GO WE 5 WILL GONNA KILL HER HAHA.
haiss.next week starting cca.so not FUN!I JUST WANT TO CARRY ON SLACKING.oh my gosh what a slacker am i.

I love ayumi hamasakiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii((:

bdae!!

2005-09-24T21:33:00.000-07:00

mayb this post should be posted ytd but was way too tired!i want to thank all those pple for wishing me happy bdae!!haha and chords is pratically mad to send me on 24september05 at 2359 which is 1159pm.and chords you r not the only one who sent me at that time so dont think you are so special.
and also wanna thank mijie,jingmin,pamela,rachel for the billabong slippers and the bum tee which is XL??hahs.they are a thoughtful lot.mm..did i miss out cordelia??nvm chords dont need to worry cos you r in too lahh!!thks chords!
and also sorry yingqi for not like save your number in my hp and i know you told chords about it!!
chinese paper 1 tomms and i practically din do any practice for it!!ahah.gona die.but still aft school gg amk library with chords yingqi to study.looking forward to that!!
DA PUMP-if is so nice.fell in love in it(:
i m so happy and mad!!kk gtg and study geog lerr.lagging so much behind!!
I LOVE ALL OF YOU!!

2005-07-16T20:07:00.000-07:00

ytd was fun
went for xiao ke.. but nthing much...
den i chat wib my kor and he gt loadds of prob lahh..but he dosent wanna tell me...
nvm..shant know too much..ignorance is bliss rght??
hahs
i tink achel is damm ke lian.nobody noes hwe to cherish her esp XXXXX
shant sae hu is it den..hahs
i bout suumting for jing...yahh
is a feng che..
hope she will be well soon
our 6-pple shall live on forever
cardinals too
they are all my dearest.
love u all //
haiis,still dunno why problems have been burdening me....
hahs
i m lame =.=
dotts...ltr gg to jiehui hse agn,doing the indain dance.
looking forward to it...

indian dance

2005-07-15T21:51:00.000-07:00

hahs ytd was a damm fun day lahh.me,jiaxuan,rachel went to jiehui hse..
den we cheograpgh the indian dance.dance until my legg blue black lahh.
the dance is quite nice.hahs
shld go ask rachel.but i bet loads of pple will opposed cos is kindao funny...
to pangs:
heyy dun care bout her lahh but lead ur own fruitful life.
i love you
kae...tok to suchin online and keep praising herself..hahs
lyk me lahh
hahs..we can be gd fwens.
rght suchin??
enough of suchin
yehh
i lyk the indian dance song
damm nice rght??_-winks at jiehui
hahs
tok to mijie on fone..and she actually noe how to play jiangnan..and without any scores lahh-looks at rachel
hahs mus relle tink tt she is quite clever hahs
LIFE IS SO MUCH BETTER
IF YOU JUST FORGIVE AND FORGET...

2005-07-11T00:59:00.000-07:00

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